Wednesday, September 10th, 2008
I think of you every day
Not all day, but for a few moments a day
And I wonder if you think of me too
For a moment.
And sometimes you have a different face
And sometimes you don’t have one
And sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever see your face
While knowing you’ve never had one
I’ve just got a frozen emotion
I just feel..
And this is it.
I’m stuck in an imaginary lifetime
For another night
‘Till I make something of tomorrow.
I’ve just got a frozen emotion
I just feel..
I don’t know what it is that I can’t see
I don’t know what it means to mean to me
When I feel down I play my guitar
And I sing, I dunno in what key
I just know I feel, feel empty
But I don’t know what was lost, lost in me
I just know I feel, feel empty
I’m thinking this maybe isn’t where I should be
But I can’t see
I’m just thinking this maybe isn’t where I should be
No I can’t see
I’m just thinking this maybe isn’t where I should be
I just know I feel..
I just know I feel..
I just know I feel.. sometimes.
Sunday, July 6th, 2008
From a distance the colours of my
face merge to one.
The imperfections of a
self-consciously imperfect whole
fade to grey.
Ironic? I want everyone to
see me from a distance,
In my hope that I might
find someone to hold me
up close.
Sunday, July 6th, 2008
The clinical sense of despair.
That look - the silent, reserved pity.
Nurses smiling -
Why?
Feeling guilty just for being OK
When he’s there, in that bed. Dead.
Except his chest still moves up and down
If you’d notice that.
Cause he’s jerking and he’s
fighting to get back on his feet.
And his eyes are opening and
shutting as he’s trying to see
the light.
But he’s in some bed
in some strange place
With no one at his side.
And he can’t understand why.
He can’t understand why.
And we’re here
Next to that same bed.
And deep down everyone knows the bed
is empty.
Just no one can understand why.
No one can understand why.
There’s been this song in my
head now for weeks.
And I don’t know what it is
but it’s beautiful for sure.
And it’ll mean more to me than
anything I’ll ever hear.
And it was real.
But is it still? Did it ever
really happen?
My head is filled with
this music.
Every time I close my eyes
my ears are opened.
Maybe it’s him writing one
last song.
I don’t know.
I’m just scared I’m already starting
to forget
how that song went.
And it was real.
But is it still? Did it ever
really happen?
